By Eleanor Stern
I love this. My own thoughts often take the form of speaking towards someone, usually someone I know, and they feel significantly more coherent when I am able to direct them. Part of me feel this is not a good thing, especially because when I am too distressed to form coherent thoughts, or find the subject matter of such thoughts to be distressing, my imagined interlocutor becomes quite cruel.
She gets manipulative, and starts gaslighting me about my own beliefs, values and intentions. I think this might be part of the reason that I have difficulty working through large things alone. Why I tend to seek out company with others, and sometimes cannot help but talk about whatever I am finding upsetting.